the more

I want him to feel me without the separation I've always had, long before him. I'm not able to always stay open, not yet, for I still feel the pressure in my chest around my heart and in my solar plexus, and it's frustrating. I still feel fear, but I also know the deeper I dig, physically and emotionally, the more the deep inner residual fears emerge, then I can let them go. The more I can stay in love and trust, the more I will find my peace, and there he will be. The more I can open my heart and let him into me and my essence, my love, the more I can feel and be love. I know I"m powerful. I know I can create my own reality. I'm filled with hope.